I'll be 63 next month and as I slide into the final phase of my life, I sit here reflecting on what a wild strange trip it's been

I am not afraid of Death; that's the good news

and all these years of studying, meditating, "digging" . . . perhaps I will never come up with the "unified field" theory of reincarnation or write "the book" or do any of those magical things I've considered as inevitable

but it doesn't matter

because I am convinced we live on, that this isn't "all there is"

that is the benefit of all this work, this feeling of safety as I move closer to the pre-ordained final breath

I have had a good run -- been an actor in Hollywood, a business person flying around the country, riding in first class and staying in fancy hotels, had the chance to have a magical amazing child and watch her grow into a magical amazing talented woman

beautiful women, beautiful places, moments that were truly transcendent

but I've also had dark times, too --- lots of them

times when nothing seemed to work, times when I seriously thought about exiting, giving up

but my faith in God (not Jesus but the God I feel in my heart) kept me going

thinking, somewhere, something beautiful would find me

and even if that beauty sometimes "disappeared" and the darkness was all I could see, I still held on to that faith
more than all other things, this is the gift

of "the gift"

Death is not the end; I am convinced of this

and so aging moving closer to my inevitable transition doesn't worry me

I believe we live on

and so . . . the final days take on new meaning

knowing we are all connected to God, always, all the time

all the time
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the #gift

​a few weeks back I had quite a few people asking my opinion about making big investments in bitcoin

I said then, contrary to most -- and I am not, and have never been, a bitcoin fan, as I always felt it was "designed" to go up and then come "crashing" down . . . that I expected it to reverse course and I would be "VERY hesitant" to jump in as I think bitcoin now is famous for being famous

at the time it was trading at over $19,000; this was just 3-4 weeks ago; right now it is trading at around $12,000 . . . those people who were "convinced" to take out second mortgages to go all in are likely now on 24 hour suicide watch and I am not being flippant in saying this

this may reverse -- but big losses like this are likely to scare those who have invested when they needed to win and couldn't "afford to lose"
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let them eat coin

#reincarnation is complicated . . . right off, it starts out with dead people and let's face it, no matter how #evolved we think we may be, death is not just a dead end (of sorts) it's also scary as fuck and well . . . welcome to my world

on top of that, if you find someone that maybe was you THEN well you're bound to uncover all sorts of shit they did wrong, like dying (for one) and you're probably thinking "i got enuff baggage already, why add yours?"

but that's the thing . . . their bags be your bags and beaten up Louis Vuitton or no, you still gotta grab that bitch from the carousel when it comes rollin' by

nobody else is gonna take it, unless it has a bunch of "Cleopatra is my home girl" stickers plastered along the sides and a big ole Egypt passport stamp from 3500 BC plain as the nose on your ancient Egyptian face staring right back at ya

so yeah . . . complicated

as fuck

and well death is kind of a drag 'cause you showed up for some kind of REASON, vague and ill-defined as it certainly doth appear to be

and perhaps that reason wasn't fulfilled and that just adds to the weight of the bags you're carrying and there's a weight limit on how much goes on the plane and well shit . . . karma's a bitch and you're not sure who what where or how much there is of it and who's to say

until after the plane crashes

soooo

bottom line -- I get it that my mad hatter dash through the reincarnation wilderness seems

#odd

but I like finding things

especially things all about

ME

death is my home boy and I am living to tell the tale

. . . kinda

kinda crazee but kinda cool, too
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kinda

Monads -- the blue print to how past lives function

I continue in my mad scientist pursuit of drawing it all out

but the "Monad" (in theory) is the highway and the bodies but cars and trucks and mini-vans taking us from one point to another

everybody has a theory -- mine gets more and more succinct and complete

may be totally crazy; who knows . . . but it continues to "take shape" nonetheless

also . .  . while thinking about past lives in hopes of posting some witty thang on FBI actually, I believe, have created something analogous to the enneagram that (theoretically) explains past life "themes"
mix 'n match . . . #bookz

Live by committee and have a day of reckoning later on . . . follow your truth and deal with some nay-sayers right off

​I know which one I think is "better"

a little insight into how (mine anyway) psychic ability works

as most of you probably know, I talked over a year ago about Trump resigning and how chaotic I expected his turn as President would likely be

there is an "energy" to people individually and an energy, as well, to collective trends

the energetic signature of Trump (to me) suggested lots of problems "adapting" his personality and instincts to Washington, DC

I also felt a tremendous "tension", both within him (typically this would be expressed as frustration or irritation) and "around him"

without a doubt that expression of energy has come to pass -- it is obvious there are some challenges he's facing

and the possibility of him resigning -- rather than being some far fetched straight out of Unicornia notion, as most people likely saw my prediction in 2016 !!

is, in fact, something debated almost daily on TV and on the internet

energy leaves a "trail" and following this trail -- the "how" of how I operate
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gives me a general ball park frame of reference as to what is likely "to happen"