I am not afraid of Death; that's the good news
and all these years of studying, meditating, "digging" . . . perhaps I will never come up with the "unified field" theory of reincarnation or write "the book" or do any of those magical things I've considered as inevitable
but it doesn't matter
because I am convinced we live on, that this isn't "all there is"
that is the benefit of all this work, this feeling of safety as I move closer to the pre-ordained final breath
I have had a good run -- been an actor in Hollywood, a business person flying around the country, riding in first class and staying in fancy hotels, had the chance to have a magical amazing child and watch her grow into a magical amazing talented woman
beautiful women, beautiful places, moments that were truly transcendent
but I've also had dark times, too --- lots of them
times when nothing seemed to work, times when I seriously thought about exiting, giving up
but my faith in God (not Jesus but the God I feel in my heart) kept me going
thinking, somewhere, something beautiful would find me
and even if that beauty sometimes "disappeared" and the darkness was all I could see, I still held on to that faith
more than all other things, this is the gift
of "the gift"
Death is not the end; I am convinced of this
and so aging moving closer to my inevitable transition doesn't worry me
I believe we live on
and so . . . the final days take on new meaning
knowing we are all connected to God, always, all the time
all the time
the #gift