we come back to "express our truth" . . . we are tasked, each lifetime, with walking in integrity, treating others (as well as ourselves) with respect and dignity, finding some source of inner power in order to more effectively navigate through each lifetime

we DO NOT, however, come back totally different than before -- we will look and act much the same each "go round" . . . circumstances will influence us, social mores and family "rules" will certainly be undercurrents to what we do -- and how "we do it"

but the nature of who we are, the essence of who we are, is (to some degree) #fixed . . . I realize this will upset many #reincarnation purists

but that is how I see it

we come to express our essence, to express our truth

each and every time; each time, too, we share certain qualities with all the lifetimes before (and yet to come)
there is a flamboyant, competitive, rule breaker in every one of my lifetimes, a golden child Beau Brummell "talker" concerned with Beauty and less so with "practicalities" . . . a flake perhaps but one with style and also one, in spite of what's on the surface, with a laser beam intellect to go along with it -- it is "who I am"

even with the lifetimes on a horse, with a sword

the flamboyant rule breaker is never all that far beneath the surface

and so, too, with you

what makes you unique and magical you bring with you, every time

your basic blueprint will roll on, in different flavors but never without many of the same basic core ingredients

we come to share our essence

we come because we like it here

we come because it is the best place to hang our Art and be seen

we are consistent in our uniqueness

we come to express our #truth
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not to find it -- to express it

Beaches closed from the Gulf up to the Great Lakes . . . Record level floods, crops planted late, if at all

The Stock Market means nothing if our water supply is compromised and the weather is a monthly sledge hammer
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Climate Change is no joke

I don't "know all" . . . but I often have some level of insight into upcoming trends long before most people recognize them
so when I say "this is what I expect to happen", it could be (in theory) used, (as I actually intend it), as a heads-up for mitigating #risk . . . this is also (for example) the rationale regarding my thoughts about both bitcoin and trump -- they are too up and down for my comfort and potentially, as a result, add extra volatility and risk into any long-term planning

it may be good, it may not -- but the types of "energy" we see around trump and around crypto currencies add a level of risk that is greater than I, personally, would wish to experience

and this up/down reactive energy almost always adds problems into the equation at some point down the road

as to the post below, ten years ago (and I, indeed, talked about it over ten years ago -- and repeated it, nonstop ever since), it would have been less urgent and less expensive to address these issues in regards to potential #flood damage

eventually, things that could have been fixed when they were small problems

turn into a #crisis if not addressed when the problem is still "in the future"
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the future, unfortunately, for many of these communities, though, is right now

you can't turn a blind eye to the blatant racism + sexism of this president and the racist sexists who support and shield him

it ain't just about money -- it's about #ego
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the root cause is egotism, feeling "important" because they're rich white boys . . . call this shit what it is: racist elitist fucks who want to be treated like they're "special" . . . we can't just roll over, can't can't can't . . . CAN'T

many of us have had paranormal experiences with deaths of family or friends . . . so, too, have many of us had premonitions or feelings about friends that were later proven to be accurate

these are normal things -- but we're taught, from childhood on, that these things we feel and experience are #wrong . . . those of us who talk about it are told to, basically, shut up and stop giving in to these false narratives and "crazy ideas"

but they're NOT crazy -- so many of us have had these, felt these, know these experiences to be true . . . they are #NORMAL
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and if you have had them, you're not crazy (no matter what some people may have said or say to you) . . . it, and you, are perfectly (para) normal <3

the "secret society" in the FBI the Republicans spent millions on investigating was a joke between two people dating who were talking about people who had the same calendar -- the secret society of people with Sponge Bob wrist watches, that kind of thing
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yet the Mueller Report is a witch hunt . . . #crazy_train

t is more and more likely that I may never "find" my past lives and put a face and a time stamp on them -- and the reason is that I'm looking for people in faraway places where the countries in which they lived vanished during the World Wars of the 20th Century

. . . Many of my past lives were in Central and Eastern Europe in places that have had many names, seen many flags . . . I "see them" and know the basic pieces/parts of their worlds . . . what their houses looked like, what their days were like, the trees in the yard, the furniture, the books on the table, the gloves and top coats by the door, the flowers all throughout the house
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I see this, smell this, feel it in my bones -- the clothes, the stolen kisses, all of it

dashing young men with pretty girls and, for a time, fancy uniforms but the world is filled with dashing young men who come and move along . . . I see glimpses of things that "click" but in the days before the wide spread usage of photography

in places in which many of the records have been lost and, if still extant, would be in languages I cannot read nor speak

it is likely that my searching for "dead people" is, ultimately, a "dead end"

my peeps are likely (semi) regular peeps, exceptional in their ways and likely quite noticeable in their personal ponds at the time . . . but not so "important" as to have left a major yes you can google me and find me today imprint on the world

I have my race driver, I have my pretty girl, I have whatever ways of seeing that have come as a result of my searching
I wanted a map with every face -- and I can find faces to put on my map but other than Achille and Claudia, how can I be sure

if you lost your keys over there, why are you on this side of the street under the street lamp? because the light is better on this side

but the keys are still on the other side, in the the dark

I find people and try to see if they fit -- but they don't, even though they look just like me and are also, in many ways, "like" who I am looking for

and so I try to make them fit so I can stop looking -- but they don't fit, even if they have many elements in common with "my people" from long ago

I look and look and look some more . . . only to keep coming up short, over and over again

such is my world :)

I have dozens of "maybes" but other than my pretty girl and my race driver, I don't think any of them "are right"

but who knows

does this #negate my search for meaning or attempt to understand how we #reincarnate ??

no

and so I must make peace with this fact
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I may still find them, all of them, but I also #may_not

I said we would see more + bigger earthquakes this week . . . within the past 24 hours we have seen a 5.9 and a 6.6 !!!!

this (in my opinion) is not normal -- nor do I think it is over
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every time lately I have said more are coming, they show up within days . . . I think this is a #trend . . . and, if so, not a good one