You don't "astrally project" -- you become one with the space where astral projection "happens" . . . you don't "remote view", you clear the clutter in your mind between you and the target

people don't understand . . . it is not something you do or learn, it is something you melt into, just as it melts into you

psychic ability is nothing more than accepting the psychic ability wavelength when/as it rolls by

you become one with it and then it simply appears

no work will get you there although it may take YEARS of work to de-clutter enough to sit still while it happens

the trick is finding stillness; everything else is a charade

I have a long and complex relationship with being "a psychic".  I wanted to understand ME, first and foremost, because (for sure) I did not.

And when my consciousness took a left turn from the path I was "supposed" to walk, which came of course with its own unique price tag, I followed my wandering minstrel scavenger hunt down every alleyway, looking constantly for an "answer", invoking my Gods or Demons depending on the phase of the moon or the state of my own internal barometer.  

A troubled, but brilliant boy . . . outwardly with everything but internally fighting with my own "take" on how consciousness "worked".  I knew what others did wasn't right but I had no idea what WAS.

Fast forward 57 years and here I am . . a "noted" prog-nos-ti-ca-tor . . . with a "track record" of looking up destiny's dress and seeing what she was too demure to show to others.   I have "opinions" about what it all "means" and today I am going to share them.

First off -- many people, including many professional psychics, say that the future is changeable and that if one makes a prediction it is valid for that point in time but things "change" and therefore the future changes -- so if I say X is going to happen but instead 3x-y squared happens, it wasn't that I missed but instead the universe took over and "shifted" things.  That is both true and hog-wash, simultaneously.  And, it is also a cop-out by the psychic, too.

It is true that we all make choices and change our minds and so our future looks different after that choice so of course this is self-evident.  But I f I say Rick Perry is going to be the Republican nominee and he is not, well it wasn't cosmic forces changing, it was simply me not "tuning" in.  It is my "error" and I admit it and call it what "it is".

What is not so self-evident in this whole line of thinking is that even though we may feel as if we are the ones "choosing", far too often it is really events that are "choosing" us.  I believe in fate, the divine hand of destiny, the unseen hand stirring the cosmic pot.  I have made way too many predictions that were "impossible" yet, "miraculously", they happened.

This leads me to this conclusion.  One, I am a total badass :)

but, two, there is something "going on" that "forces" this event in to "actuality".  Astrology is a perfect tool for displaying this as the seed of the future is laid out within the natal chart and it unfolds through transits and progressions that we can chart out well in advance of actual "events".  SOMETHING is waiting for us and we are "destined" to walk through that door and no matter what me may "feel" about our ability to guide our own ship, it is not 100% within our power to choose what is going to "happen".

There will be plenty who will argue this point and I say this with the full expectation that will happen.  It will make for a fun little discussion.  Argue away.

This leads me on to Subject # 2, which I expect will ruffle even more feathers and so I welcome the nay-sayers to this, as well.  Your thoughts do NOT create reality.  Your interconnection with reality influences how it is perceived and it may appear to act in a certain way, according to the pre-defined walls of your already well constructed mind-trap.  We all have this "mind-trap", what Blake called "Mind-forged manacles" (me included !!), and it is this pre-set knob on your sub-woofer that determines your reality.  

Reality is what it IS and the point to this is that each of us is limited in what we can perceive about the fullness of that "reality".

"Our reality" is basically just a sub-set, by definition it is only a small piece of a much bigger puzzle.  None of us can know ALL of reality therefore none of us can CREATE our own reality, as we do not understand all the parts that go in to it.

If we are trying to re-create Grandma's Peach Cobbler and don't realize she uses ground pumpkin seed mixed with pomegranates soaked in vodka, then we may not be able to duplicate the yummy goodness of it when we make it with just peaches and sugar .

The "prosperity consciousness" gurus miss a rather obvious point -- that until you clear out the weeds in your garden, your flowers are not gonna grow to their full potential.  I can't plant my tomatoes in sand and expect to win a ribbon at the County Fair.

Same, too, with consciousness.  Until you go weed-whacking in the depths of your subconscious, so terribly littered with false pieces of "interpretations of reality" and a thousand thousand thousand subliminal commands about who you are and who you need TO BE, you're not going to do so well at "re-wiring" your thinking.   Until I know the basic architecture of the house, I shouldn't start knocking down walls and putting in a new bath room.

It could get messy.

Point # 3, another quick little editorial sure to piss somebody off concerns "Public" Predicitions.  After the event, lots and LOTS of people will say, "oh I thought that, too" or, my personal favorite, "everyone knew that" . . . well, actually, no -- they didn't.  If they did, they would have said it out loud, in advance, too.

I find it ha ha hilarious how so many people change their tunes on a dime after the "event happens" . . there are sooooooo many amateur psychics right now, too.  It simply staggers the mind :)

But the issue with Point # 3 also relates to the earlier discussion about "consciousness" and "perceived reality" . . . this information is there, for all of us.  I don't have a personal email address with Jesus where he sends newsletters on future events.  It is a piece of "consciousness" and, with the right spot on your inner dial, you too will tune in to it.  But this channel has a small antenna and until you clear off all the other channels competing for your attention, you are simply not going to hear it.  Think about the old days of AM radio when you tried to pick up a channel from another city but it will slip in and out and you wanted to hear punk rock but instead got country and western . . . it is like that with psychic ability -- especially the "ability" to run along the "time/space" continuum.  

Remember, until you clear the weeds and fertilize the soil, the flowers can't grow to their full potential.

Final thought -- dignity and the psychic profession.  As a profession, the "psychic world" is too often filled with pettiness and "drama".  It doesn't need to be that way.  I try in my own way to be supportive of people as they grow, knowing that NO ONE has all the answers and since this is uncharted territory, it is fully reasonable to expect us ALL to get lost once in a while.  What bugs me, though, is the attitude of "certainty" so many people seem to have, when it is fairly obvious that they have "issues" just like everyone else -- sometimes a LOT more.  

Kindness, compassion, courtesy -- these are the hallmarks of a positive, optimistic person.  We, as a profession, would do well to remember that :) 

I said earlier that I planned to "channel" my daughter to help me clarify what I "should do" and immediately I see a vision of her and this amazing scene and within a minute or two there are these two well-dressed men with a BIG CONTRACT.

They are showing me the contract and trying to point out sort of paragraph by paragraph what I am "contracted to do" . . . somewhere in this (looking back at it now) is probably the clause (and your daughter will show up briefly and die so you learn ????) and my guess is that verbiage was in there somewhere so of course, at that point, my clairvoyant skills simply stopped (or were perhaps consciously shut down uh huh uh huh)

so I change "venues" and go back to lie down and almost instantly go nappy ville for 3 hours and not more than 5 minutes after I wake up I get texted by a a dear friend I haven't spoken to in months whose girl friend has a message for me from Lehna.

I wanted to channel her -- and (perhaps in the only way I could hear her) that is exactly what happened :)

Well, it is almost Halloween and what better way to celebrate than with another entry in The ParaGoddess Halloween Blog Tour.  Here is my entry on how to dress for karmic success this Halloween !!

Sure, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle costume still fits and it is always a good idea to dress up as the naughty nurse or pick up something from Friday the Thirteenth 13 . . . but maybe, just maybe, THIS year you want to do something a little . . . different.

How different?  Tap in to the cosmic vault different.  Akashic Record different.  Re In Car Ney Shun.

That kind of different.  Come as you Were -- time to let your true karmic colors shine !!

But, ok -- how, exactly, am I supposed to do that?  I'm psychic; I can HEAR you saying this.  How do you do that -- how do you "discover" who (or what) you were?  Well, there are a couple of quick ways to do that.  One is through a concept called "karmic resonance" -- in essence, what times or places do you "vibe" with, feel a special, gosh I don't know where that came from, affinity.  

You don't know why the Roman Empire fascinates you SO MUCH; it just does. And every time you see furniture that has a certain "look" to it, you get this weird, creepy "feeling", either it is something sort of familiar (in some not easily described way) OR just the opposite.  When you see it you IMMEDIATELY don't like it !!

These feelings are "clues"-- and architecture and furniture (and food, too) are signs along the karmic highway pointing towards a time and place you may have lived once before.  OK, I hear you saying to yourself, "seriously, dude, wtf !!  How do I know there IS such a thing as a past life, much less identify my own?"

And that is a reasonable question to ask and one, truthfully, no one can answer with 100 % confidence.  However, I have done a lot of research as well as dipping into my own "inner vault" for 35 years and the "validity" of reincarnation seems more and more likely to me as the years pass.  Past lives, back when I still did "psychic readings", were a big part of my practice.  I have written books about it and was even voted, just this Spring, as the 57th Best/Most Trusted Psychic in the World . . . but, none of that can be used as "proof".  Still, there are many compelling reasons why I feel reincarnation is fact, not theory.

Getting back, though, to our karmic clothes closet, as we sort through what to wear this Halloween, another method for tapping in to past lives involves a process called "past life regression".  This is a guided meditation and there are many regression tapes and videos online that you can listen to, for free.  Just check out youtube or Google.  Regressions are vision quests that allow you to tap in to inner "home movies", movies that circumvent the road blocks the subconscious mind throws in our path to keep us from accessing past life memories. 

Back in the 1980's, I worked at a New Age bookstore called "Pearls of Wisdom" and we used to throw "Come as You Were" parties -- and truly a more rockn party was hard to find.  There is just enough mystery in past lives to make it a bit "spooky" straight from jump so as a Halloween "add-on" it makes perfect sense.  This year, take some time to sit quietly and just allow yourself to "see" who you WERE -- tell yourself that you are going to be shown something about your past life/lives and trust your instincts.  Maybe you weren't a Ninja Turtle and that sucks, of course, if you've had Raphael's suit already dry-cleaned . . . but putting together your ensemble, knowing it is related to your own, cosmic, history is kind of exciting.

Don't be afraid to look to the past to figure out what to wear this Halloween.  There will be still a few naughty nurses, for which we can all be thankful but don't be afaid to look inside to see what looks best on the outside.

Come as you WERE -- Karmic Couture.  Truly, it looks good on YOU :)

Here is a list of all the others on the ParaGoddess Halloween Blog Tour . .  also, next up tomorrow on the 21st is Susan Hanniford Crowley: http://nightsofpassion.wordpress.com/

Oct. 19 Gabrielle Faust
Oct. 20 Andrew Brewer
Oct. 21 Susan Hanniford Crowley
Oct. 22 Amy Williamson
Oct. 23 Candi Fox
Oct. 24 Jason Black
Oct. 25 Nadia Romanov
Oct. 26 Jennifer Leigh Scott
Oct. 27 Shoshi
Oct. 28 Karyn Dolan
Oct. 29 Brady Allen
Oct. 30 Jessica Subject
Oct. 31 JoLynne Valerie

As we move closer and closer to the "end" of the Mayan Calendar, I think it is becoming more and more obvious that something "unusual" is in the air.  For one thing, more and more people are becoming, pretty much, flat out crazy . . . not just eccentric but off the hook mad.

Admit it, someone you know over the past 2-3 months has begun to act or sound "different" -- this could, of course, include you.  I have been saying, for a long time, that as we move into a "higher vibration" (which I, personally, believe is happening) some will adapt quite nicely while others will shake and bake from within.

Who you are WILL come out -- good, bad, or indifferent.  Uranus square Pluto, right?  What was hidden will be revealed.  I don't find it at all surprising that Boy Scouts were molested, in the thousands, over the past 50 years and that this was both hushed up AND brought to light right now.  There are more of these "revelations" yet to come.  But more than skeletons rattling in over-stuffed closets, it is the soul's yearning to be heard that (to me) is revving up the sub-tweeter most.

We are, collectively, working towards wholeness.  For those who have looked to the only place where this can be revealed -- within themselves -- this is likely to be a bit of a sketchy time but all for the good. For those who have "shut off" the inner voice, most likely due to fear of what it might say . . . well then this time is a big ole "thud" to the nervous system.

I hate it for ya but these next 3 months . . . well they are gonna fuck with you.  Hard.

I predicted, starting in March, 2007, that the "2012 Consciousness" would start the week of September 15, 2008 . . . that was the week "bail out" was first introduced into the collective consciousness of the United States and the rest of the world.  That was the collective "trigger" . . . now the balloon payment on the subconscious contract is coming due.  Some will prosper, others will suffer. To make the most of this time it is important that you march to your own beat.  You may not know what that beat is, but if you listen and try to dance, however awkwardly, to your own song, then this is your time and the beat will be revealed -- in full orchestration.

Listen . . .

You are the only song that matters. Live your life knowing this is True :)

Originally Posted (October 7, 2012)

In 2006, when I first let the cat out of the bag on the "world wide web" that I had a bit of "psychic" ability, one of the very first things I started talking about was the economy.  At the time, the United States was flying high but I felt (oh blasphemy of ALL blasphemies) that soon, within the next year or two, the economy would not only slow down but would go in to something of a free fall, like a drunk after an all night bender.  This, as you might imagine, was (at the time) not well received.

Fast forward -- 2012.  My take on what comes next is rooted in my analysis of what went before.  Without understanding the seed, you cannot fully grasp the growth pattern of the plant and the seeds that were planted back in 2001 have already taken root . . . the weeds have eaten the garden and much as we may boo hoo that the rose bushes were overrun by dandelions, the fact remains that, as economic gardeners, we all kinda suck.  We, at least within the United States and certainly, too, in other parts of the world, allowed the wool to be pulled down tight over our unfocused eyes and, as a result, we have allowed a beautiful patch of ground to go . . . untended and therefor prey to whatever forces were strongest.

Those forces were, systematically and intentionally, looting the seed bank.

They were also working hard to reverse long-standing policies within the United States and replace them with a more "laissez-faire" approach -- one that saw basic services as entitlements and the Capital "G" Government as an enemy of the people.  When someone tells you what they plan to do, it is often wise to actually listen to what they say and I heard what they were saying -- and what that MEANT -- but I was in the minority as others cherry-picked the parts they liked and ignored what didn't "fit" in their pre-conceived world view.

Not a good plan.

So . . . what do we expect next?  First off, unemployment at these levels WAS (as I said in 2007) the AIM of this little hokey-pokey square dance . . . it was DESIGNED to drive down labor costs and "inspire" a big chunk of people to get off their "high horses" and roll in the dirt a bit.  Driving down labor costs was and is the "end game" of the controlled implosion of the United States economy and it has been a painful 4 years but now the tide is turning.  People are desperate to work and not so "unreasonable" as to expect a living wage.  They are hungry and, as such, primed for the next phase of the economic turn of the wheel.

Not only are Americans desperate to work they are also, relatively speaking, uneducated and poorly equipped to meet the vocational needs of the 21st Century.  There is a large skilled labor force well versed in professions suddenly obsolete and a young, unskilled labor force without the critical thinking skills necessary to effectively adapt on the fly.  Asia and India have a work force more suited "to the times" and, much as this must pain so many, the United States will soon see Asia come knocking on our door to answer customer service calls for banks and phone companies in the Far East.  This is going to happen --- sooner, I think, than later.

We are not quite third world but not quite superpower either.  A military force with a very heavily divided work force from which to draw.  The best of the best mingled with a large hodge podge of Honey Boo Boo's . . . something has got to give and the trend, as far as standard of living goes, for the avarage American is continually downward.

YET -- I continue to predict that the economy is on the upswing.  How can this be, based on what I just said?

It's easy.  Employment opportunities are going to rebound and jobs will be more plentiful.  As more money circulates, more skilled people will be needed and "real wages" will increase -- so, for those who "work", the economy will get better.

The past 10 years have been a giant hot potato and the question is "who ends up with scorched fingers?".  For me, this has always been an easy thing to see.  The people who lose most are those who have fixed incomes or pensions.  They are the sacrificial lambs, (along with anyone who bought a house between 2005-2008), of the eonomic re-"arrangement".

EXCUSE ME BROTHER, CAN YOU SPARE A LITTLE OINTMENT?  I'VE GOT A BAD CASE OF QUANTITATIVE EASING !!

QE3 -- it looks so benign.  Is this an abbreviaton for 3rd Quarter earnings or a new pimped out superliner?  No, it is neither.  It is an abbreviation for "Quantitative Easing 3" which, for those without a degree in economics, suggests something nice and warm and soothing.  And, for a select group, there could be no better pill for all the aches and pains of a thousand lifetimes.  But for most, this is a slow poison; one I predicted, years back, would happen and, not so surprisingly, the inevitable actually WAS inevitable.

So, what exactly is "Quantitative Easing" and why do I link QE3, along with QE1 and QE2, with the assessment that the true "losers" are all those who invested in fixed-income retirement packages?  Why is that group, more than all others, the one with the biggest stick in the most inconvenient space?

Quantitative Easing, in a nutshell, goes something like this: the Federal Reserve buys financial "instruments" from commercial banks -- like a bond -- so the bank has a greater "reserve".  Boiled down to its simplest element, it means that the Federal Reserve simply, out of thin air, "makes money" and gives it to the bank . . . meaning, boys and girls, that there is more money than before and if the same amount of goods and services existed as the day before, with more dollars floating in the economic turd pool, the cost of a good or service might very well go up, since there is suddenly a greater supply of money to bid for that service or product.

In reality, this serves as a flat rate tax against everyone but since the poor, in theory, are better served by a tiered tax this serves as a double whammy against them.  They are seeing their "dollar supply" eroded and, as a function of mathematical progression, their buying power is diminished -- literally both coming and going.

Let's say Grandma Jones has a fixed monthly Social Security check of $1000.  Over the last 4 years, the Federal Reserve has simply "added" money to the overall supply (through their assistance to banks to increase their reserves) and the relative purchasing power of income to buying power will likely stay the same . . . however, that adjustment is happening "real time" while G. Jones is unable to see those adjustments take place within the "market".  Her $1000 is not amped up by the new money supply so therefore her relative buying power goes down.

Let's say that QE1, 2, and 3 added approximately 10 %, per annum, to the supply of money.  Over 4 years that would add up to 40 % which would suggest that Grandma J's buying power, with her $1000 was now, instead of $1000, really only about $600 yet the market would adjust upward for those earning a $1000 over the same period to approximately $1400.

So Grandma Jones' true buying power hasn't diminished 40%, instead it has dropped closer to 60% (600/1400).  This is what has happened to people on fixed incomes with set annuities or fixed pensions . . . they have seen the relative value of that money literally stolen from them, by design.  This doesn't even take in to account the crisis in home mortgages.  So, those who purchased artificially inflated homes also saw the fruits of their labor stolen.

But that is past.  That group, I hate it for ya, has already been fucked and there is nothing that is going to fix that.

However, soon those who are in the work force will see their worlds begin to improve.  Jobs will be more plentiful, all these empty houses will soon (once again) be on the market and filled with young hopeful families working towards a brighter tomorrow.  The damage has already been done.

I warned it would happen; I warned HOW it would happen but . . . people could only see "tax rate"; they couldn't understand the back door fallout which so greatly surpasses the tax burden of the average American.  Going forward, things will improve.  But --- for those who blindly went along with all the policies of the past 10 years, perhaps you win, perhaps you lose.  But it is a certainty that if you were not part of the wage earning elite over the past 4 years, you were shaken down in broad daylight and robbed.  You may not know it yet -- but you soon will.

The economy will soon start hitting on all cylinders.  However, many former "workers" are dinosaurs and technology has left them behind.  Ironically, the ones shouting the loudest for welfare reform are demographically most closely aligned with my "dinosaur" pool and they may see that attitude return to haunt them.

Final statement: it will do no good to complain about the past.  Look forward and do your best because tomorrow has the potential to bring a sunny day.  The recent past is a dark cloud and filled with darker tales; it is best to remember yet move ahead, worse for wear perhaps but still hopeful for a brighter future.

Originally Posted (September 19, 2012)


Yes, it would have been nice to have seamlessly transitioned from my corporate success into a deeper understanding of why I "tick" or how to move into higher and higher "gears" as a clairvoyant.

It would be nice, too, if there was an expensive weekend retreat I could go to and not get my mind or heart dirty and could learn just enough to satisfy my curiosity and then go back to my "safe haven".

But that is a myth.  True spiritual understanding typically comes from having a backdrop of darkness opposing your vision of the light and moving into the "higher realms" as a psychic or visionary or spiritual seeker or whatever you may want to call yourself is a long winding road, filled with broken toes and steep cliffs.  It takes time . . . and it takes a lot of courage.

The trick to developing as a psychic is to root out all the messages telling you why you can't or shouldn't BE a psychic -- as well as looking at this very important piece of the inner puzzle . . . the ones typically telling you what the place "looks like" have never been there.

Just as spiritual teachers who bring up inconvenient questions are often shunned, so, too, are psychics who don't package their gifts in a nice little bow.  I am not the only one BY FAR about whom this could be said . . . remember, the path involves cliff-hangars and villains galore, much like a Hollywood Serial of the 1920's, and the more you open the deep wounds you need to open in order to remove the scar tissue standing BETWEEN you and "the truth", the more physically (and psychologically) vulnerable you become.

The mythology of psychic ability "sells" a lot better than the reality but the reality is just as amazing.  When people say "oh if you're psychic you'll know INSERT GRANDMA'S NAME OR WHAT AM I THINKING RIGHT NOW" I just shake my head because I know what I'm THINKING -- they just don't understand how it "works".  And at this stage of the game my self-esteem is way too high to crawl in the mud with them.

Michael Jordan didn't make every shot, Babe Ruth didn't hit a home run every game, not everything written by Hemingway or Faulkner is worth reading . . . psychic ability is a heightened level of perception -- heightened NOT absolute.  When we see it from that vantage point, then the idiotic stances of "oh if you're 'psychic' you'll do . . . " are signs of their lack of understanding, not a weakness within US.

I am happy to talk with skeptics but I get bored VERY QUICKLY with zealots.  An open mind is beautiful but debating a closed fist clutching a weak mind bulging with old useless knick knacks is not my idea of the best way to spend my afternoon.  For those of you still developing (I guess that would be all of us, right ??) please remember this: there are NO shortcuts.

It takes time, it is often painful and confusing and the desire to do anything OTHER than look at this will be overwhelming more than once in your life time.  Stick with it for "the pearl of great price is not easily found" . . . and for those who take short cuts and mock you for doing it the right way you must trust that this path has a destination . . . it is not ONLY a crazy thrill ride in some B-Movie Carnival Horror Film; it is the most beautiful path there is.

There are NO short cuts and very few road maps (and those always leave out the washed away bridges) . . . there is only GO.

GO.

Originally Posted (August 30, 2012)

Lots of people think, quite erroneously, that they can take a weekend class in clairvoyance and poof be instantly plugged in to the 24 hour Cosmic Cable Network.  I hate to burst your bubble, but everyone you see working at a high level as a psychic / medium / healer etc etc has paid a price to develop that gift, because it takes time and it also takes a "different" type of focus than most people "normally" possess.

All gifts in life come with a price; great beauty, musical genius, athletic prowess . . . the development (and maintenance) of that gift often times seems effortless to an outsider but for anyone working at a high level -- at anything -- there is a back story that will always involve some element of choice and some degree of sacrifice.

For me, a lot of my "development" was almost unconscious.  I followed the bouncing ball wherever it happened to lead, not always understanding how the shin bone might ever connect with the hip bone but I had some crazy "faith" that, eventually, it would all come together.

I was a "wanderer", drifting in and out of life, hard core 24 hours a day engaged in "something" and then back to the bat cave to meditate and "drift off".  As a result, there is a rather jagged path from beginning to middle to end and along the way I found many golden nuggets dropped at my feet but, for reasons that are probably (in retrospect) fairly self-evident, many of those golden geese were unceremoniously left behind as some other "divine inspiration" rained down from above.

I followed my own "unique path".  But not all choices in life are easy ones -- and not every choice "works out".  I have the bumps and bruises from stepping blindly off many a curb in to onrushing traffic and those "dark nights" that followed weren't fun.  Finding some way to survive until morning "made me" what I am today but, again, the "shamanic roto-rooter" (when the blades are truly spinning) cuts and those cuts take time to heal.

Looking back, though, the original price I was forced to pay was the one that hurt most but isn't that the way, so often, it turns out to be.

The photo above was taken on April 22, 1978.  It was my wedding day and my wife's name was Stephania Jo Ross.  

I loved her -- and she LOVED me.  It was one of those relationships in which sparks fly, in all directions, and wherever we went, people noticed.  She was that beautiful, tall, thin, elegant; there was nobody like her and for some reason she loved me, too.

But in 1978 my inner pot was stirring and the "visions" that would later be wrestled to the ground as the foundation for my work as a "psychic" were just starting to burst through and as a 23 year old I was not yet equipped to understand them . . . and they were quite "insistent" on being heard.

As a result of listening to that inner voice -- and talking about it -- people began to see me, not as a golden child filled with potential but, instead, as a crazy man starting to "lose his shit".  

I didn't understand what was happening and I couldn't stop it, either, and so eventually the relationship ended because I could not step away and focus on my marriage and the day to day realities of being a new husband.  I wanted to "figure it out" and I let Jo Jo know that understanding what was "going on" INSIDE of me was THE most important thing in my life.  MORE important than her :(

After Jo Jo and I split, I tuned it all out -- tuned her out.  I guess it is safe to say that I didn't "suffer" from lack of female companionship after the split but, deep down, she was always there, always the yard stick with which I unconsiously measured all who followed.  

Jo Jo died when she was only 40 years old; an angel in so many ways so maybe, on one level, this was a divine form of protection.  Who knows.  All I do know is that this relationship was, by far, the hardest thing I HAD to give up; the one that hurt the longest.

I didn't start out to be "psychic"; I set out to find out what the Hell was wrong with ME but ultimately that search turned out to be a search to "find God".  I believe, though, that is exactly what I ultimately found and that by "finding me" I also found God, too. 

For those who think psychic ability is easy please remember this -- it may be a gift but to bring it to the surface almost always involves a degree of sacrifice . . . the greater the gift, the greater the expectation.

Everything comes full circle and that, I guess, is the TRUE beauty of our earthly sojourn.  I paid my ticket and took Mr. Toad's Wild Ride . . . and a new adventure will soon, once more, begin :)

Originally Posted (August 28, 2012)

Did I work all these years to "understand" my "psychic abilities" so I could make money or did I do it because it was such a part of me I couldn't separate from it to see life without it?

For me, the answer is definitely from Column # 2.  It was with me all along and I HAD TO MAKE SENSE OF IT and make "Peace" with it, too, as much as I could.

Leaving the business part of my psychic abilities "behind" is a sign, a very obvious sign, of my own health and it means, to me, also that I have finally integrated this wild stallion into my world in all its multi-faceted brilliance.  

When I quit before, back in 1992, it was in the midst of all kinds of chaos and ultra-funky vibrations from my infomercial (and the behind the scenes wheelings and dealings) -- not to mention that my ex-wife hated my working as a psychic, especially one who did "murder cases" ('cause surely someone would kill our entire family to shut me up !!) 

and she also hated being married to "The Psychic Adonis" because she thought I got "too much attention" so I quit -- partly against my will . . . I had a chance to continue on TV with millionaires in my corner and I was young and handsome and the Golden Goose was sitting right there in my doorway; it was truly "my time" but I was a coward so I took the fork in the road that led nowhere and . . . well, zippie dee doo dah, life goes on.  Now, though, I am excited by what lies around the next bend on my personal highway and so this time, I am doing it more on my terms.

My clairvoyance is a gift, a truly beautiful gift -- but a much different gift than I originally imagined :)

All education comes with a price and I have paid a big price for mine but what I learned -- so beautiful !!  And so the wheels on the bus turn round once more :)

Originally Posted (August 26, 2012)

Another "confirmation" (for me anyway) of "past lives" -- I just did a reading for a young woman and she asked me "what was my LAST past life?" and I described a very specific scenario -- place time look and occupation -- that was an EXACT match to a reading she had earlier . . . interesting, indeed.

This wasn't a random "you were a farmer in the 18th Century" thing but very detailed and these details, at least according to her, were exactly what she had been told before.

Now this could have been my "clairvoyance" picking up the previous reading; that is possible.  But I believe that it really was "her past life" and this other psychic and I both picked up on it.

Past lives, in my opinion, are "true".