I have a lot of things percolating in my brain lately -- a big one being the interesting parallels between the "cover-ups" of the assassination of JFK (and JFK, Jr) and 9/11

because it is how it was "sold" and how people were conditioned to "see it" that (to me) is MOST fascinating

I am considering writing a book about commonalities in the JFK "cover-up" and 9/11 "Truth" . . . but the thrust of this book wouldn't be (so much) about who did what and why

. . . although, trust me, I have some very strong opinions about the how, why, and by whom for each

but primarily I would be looking at how we (far too easily) allow our minds to be roped off

so that quite obvious "issues" that under "normal circumstances" almost anyone would see as problematic
are, instead, accepted as gospel truth

and the ones brave enough to say the emperor is stark nakie are treated as fools, when they're actually seeing what's there (or not)

it is this cogntive blindness . . . developed and nutured by our educational system and the cultural watchdogs appointed to "guide us" toward a "shared truth"

that not only keeps us from seeing how causal links are bound to play out -- since those very links are hidden in plain sight

but also greatly negates our ability to tap into our innate intuition

since the road "to it" is buried beneath a pile of lies the subconscious is forced to sift through in order to find "emotional and intellectual HARMONY"

we are shown how to think but the "problem" is the people showing us are manipulating us, because they don't want us to see past Oz's (false) curtain

not much different from sexual abusers telling the abused what they knew happened didn't really happen that way AT ALL
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and therein, boys and girls, doth the rub lie

over the years, I have suggested (this goes back to the 1980's) that people dealing with stress watch cartoons or do coloring books

Cartoons for people dealing with Depression (as the colors somehow soothed them) and coloring for those dealing with intense, short-term stress (same reason, but the motor activity helped "spread out" some of the physical tension stored within the body)

I made these suggestions then (and still do sometimes) because I felt they were simple, cost-effective means of dealing with anxiety

they work . . . I find it interesting (but not surprising) that in a time in which so many people are "anxious" that "adult coloring"
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would be a "craze"

http://qz.com/650378/the-sad-reason-american-adults-are-so-obsessed-with-coloring-books/

last night, and once again this morning, I had the "urge" to wear this purple jacket hanging in my closet . . . I was like "uh, why?"

now, of course, it makes sense

but something even more out of nowhere happened 2-3 days ago when, for some crazy reason (again) I started thinking of the 90's wrestling "icon" Chyna . . . I started thinking of her and had (as sometimes happens) this weird "I wonder whatever happened to so and so" thang

I thought -- is she still alive? why would I even think this?

but when I looked her up (because I did look her up to "make sure") and saw she WAS still alive, I had the saddest feeling "for her" . . . I wished I could reach out and send her a protein cupcake and a big heaping basket of unicorn love

today, Joan Marie Laurer (aka "Chyna"), passed away; she was only 45

even stranger, evidently she posted a video 3 days ago in which many people were alarmed for her -- it was perhaps this "collective worry" that got my "attention"

these "feelings" -- what I call "drive-by psychic" . . . happen all the time for me but it is only in retrospect that I understand "why" -- even though at the time, it always "shows up" as a "strange kind of feeling"

Prince and Chyna -- sooooooo sad !!
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Rest in Peace :(

http://www.latimes.com/local/lanow/la-me-ln-chyna-video-20160421-story.html

In my opinion, he was the greatest, most talented musician in the world, bar none

Prince, dead today, at age 57

in this clip, and he's not sharing the stage with a bunch of light weights, when he shows up it is like he's from another planet -- he is THAT GOOD

Scott, then David Bowie, now this
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wow :(

there sure a lot of rule books -- and people anxious and willing to quote from them

yet to get anywhere you have to recognize that YOUR MIND

is the only rule book there is . . . and all the dogma and strict adherence to "formulas"

don't mean shit if you aren't (a) willing to invest your heart in whatever you do

and (b) believe you are "worthy" for the results following said "rule book" . . . PROMISES to give you

quick story; back in the 1980's, I worked at a "New Age" bookstore called Pearls of Wisdom and many people would come into the store who were "devotees" to a certain philosophy regarding diet and health

didn't matter which of the many schools of thought they followed -- what mattered was their outward "devotion" to the rules

and me, being something of my own free spirited "thang" did and ate whatever crossed my mind at the time

and once in a while I might be sitting there eating french fries or who knows what and the person over in the "Health" section would come over to me and "lecture me" as to why whatever I was doing was "bad"

but the proof in the puddn (so to speak) was this -- in the 1980's, I had a lovely nickname: "The Psychic Adonis"

and this was based on the observable notion at the time that I was sort of Adonis-like, solid muscle, no fat etc etc

and usually the people lecturing me on how I was "unhealthy" -- and conversely they had it "goin' on"

looked like shit and probably couldn't walk through the store for 30 minutes without finding a bench

and 30 years later I am still sort of "Adonis-like" so I guess I wasn't that far off doing it "my way"

I thought about what I ate, I worked hard . . . but I didn't get wrapped up in somebodies definition of how it should be "done"

because I was unwilling to get on the bus with the herd . . . and the reason for that was because I wanted to be the baddest mother fucker around

even if it took a while to get there

and them? . . . they all wanted to "fit in" with the herd

choices etc etc

same holds true in the cosmic fun house I lovingly call "Psychic World"

some people will say you have to do a chant or say a prayer or 5 Hail Mary's or 22 Namastes or whatever

and me, outlaw that I am, do none of this . . . of course, I spent 6 years in my 20's meditating 30-40 hours every week, literally

and I've practiced for 40 years, working in my own way ALL THE TIME

but because I don't look nor act or sound like what some people think you should since they have a "rule book"

then . . . well, you know what's coming

they feel compelled AND QUALIFIED

. . . to "lecture me" on how I do it "wrong"

but just like Psychic Adonis vs overweight unhealthy-looking "health FANATIC"

if the person doing the Namastes and chanting can't "see" anything and you're an outlaw and do your thing your way

 . . and YOU CAN

then the proof is in "the proof"

not the rule book

fuck rule books . . . be willing to experiment, try shit on even if it doesn't fit

be willing to take chances

fuck rule books

be your own road map
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‪#‎trust‬

you need to figure out what you want . . . make some attempt at understanding why you may not be working towards that (if you are not currently doing that)

and, if you're not . . then you NEED to start moving towards / aligning with / integrating / "becoming" . . . who you are
. . . because what you want IS who you are

rock stars hang with rock stars !!!

so if you aren't CURRENTLY hanging with rock stars it is not because you aren't a rock star

it is because you're not being true

to what you WANT
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. . . think about that

I have talked about this in the past quite a bit --- Hollywood doesn't think much of women in general and FOR SURE has no use for women from 40 onwards

yet, men in their 40's and 50's are the stars . . . this is reflective of men holding power in other fields, who control the purse strings for greenlighting film production

it is all about making men with fat bellies and fat wallets seem "more attractive" and denying the power of women in the same age group

everything is designed to disempower the sexual potency of young men, women 40 and older, and anyone not either a white male over 25 or a white female 18-33

lies, damn lies, and statistics . . . well these numbers, imo, don't lie

they paint a pretty bleak picture

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/proof-that-hollywood-really-doesnt-want-you-to-hear-women-speak_us_5707fe30e4b04bf520ff734b

people who tell you that once you hit 45 or 50 or whatever and all you have to look forward to is Bingo and watching cat videos on youtube with your grandchildren

are kind of missing the point

and that point is this: if you stay young in your mind -- because your mind is the thing driving your car

you can blow those "limitations" up . . . I (and I for sure would not have believed this possible 40 years ago) am more muscular and (in many ways) get just as much attention for what I "look like" at 61

as I did years and years and years ago . . . sex, sports, blowing and going -- all that still "works"

and if it works for me, it can also work for you

anyone telling you to tone your act down -- forget you're a sexual vibrant rockn INDIVIDUAL
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is planting a seed in your garden that you need to yank out

what you love (not who) may scare the holy fuck out of you . . . but if you don't admit that's what you love

you'll end up chasing rabbits down some dark hole and end up with carrots and bunny poop (not nearly so tasty nor magical as that of the UNICORN)

love is what matters . . . and what you love is for you and you alone

ignore it if you can . . . but one day it will come back and say "you dumb cowardly mother fucker -- I am the one you've loved all along"

and like the Sirens sending you into the rocks, you'll listen (maybe)

but until you do you'll end up with Rabbit poop
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and not much else

some relationships may "fail" not because you are not matched to your partner, but because the compromises to your "path" are not in alignment with your optimal spiritual evolution

in those instances, be happy for what is / was

but recognize a long journey often has many stops along the way

the Inn was beautiful and magical . . . but you're not supposed to live there; only visit

transformed by what you've seen and felt

but still . . . there is more world you're "meant to see"
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and the only way to see it is to leave the Inn and travel onward