Watching Kavanaugh triggered the living fuck out of me

and I have been trying hard to pinpoint exactly why

and I think a big part of it is that as a swaggy white boy who in so many ways flips the swaggy white boy script upside down, it is buried deep down within me

all the bullshit I've dealt with having to (a) deal with little whiney pricks just like Bart NO'Giveafuck all my life and (b) deal with the ways in which people may "perceive me" since, based on a lot of visible factors, I might (in their eyes on "first impression") be Andrew Kavanaugh, rather than King of the Unicorns

it's complicated

and just as women must deal with the condescension coming from prep school white boys who look down on them

so, too, do many men also have memories of dealing with this class look down your nose hostility that has been "internalized" by us somewhere along the way

People like Kavanaugh make me CRAZEE

this is probably part of the Freud on Speed Dial logic behind why I am sooooooooo vocal about Trump's "behavior"
I have dealt with this all my life

and yes, it still bugs the fuck out of me even now

rape is about power -- showing who "has it" and who "doesn't"

and when I see someone asserting power and not giving a fuck who it hurts -- even worse, when it is OBVIOUS
they get off on KNOWING it hurts

. . . let's just say "it bugs me"

all these self-entitled no fucks given "Masters of the Universe"

are why we're still, emotionally, stuck in caves with sabre tooth tigers

we can't grow as long as people like Trump and Kavanaugh -- and the Billionaires behind them

choose to knock women in the head and drag them by the hair
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and if I had a nickel for every "hey, pretty boy, fuck you" I heard along life's highway, I would eat quite well for a long long time

I believe black men are targeted because they are perceived by smalldickwhiteboys as sexual threats -- basically, competition they want to eliminate

and they fear women and target them to make sure they "toe the line" and don't make them "feel bad about themselves"

it is all cluster fuck city in the membrane

and so they manipulate the world and gaslight everyone in it to run from these feelings that they might not be "divinely ordained" for power

those of us who stand up to them are targets of their "wrath"

another reason why men like this are aggressive and condescending to women

is that as self-entitled "God's gifts" they must suppress any voice that doesn't support their mania

this is one, of many, possible reasons why I feel women's pain so acutely

bottom line . . . this madness has to end

and derailing Brett's "reward" for being a "good boy" seems like a good place to
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#start

Just because rising sea levels are economically “inconvenient”

Doesn’t negate the truth of what’s happening

Continuing to “pretend” coastal property is not at risk is going to backfire soon enough

I keep posting predictions about major flood issues (which consistently “happen” just as I predicted)

In hopes this will inspire people to be really conscious of the risks they may face living along coast lines, especially Mid-Atlantic states from South Carolina to New Jersey

Outlawing reports that potentially hurt developers

Doesn’t outlaw the weather

It will get worse

So plan for it
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And do something now to mitigate potential issues later

​ wrote about this before he was even inaugurated, saying Trump's "presence" in the White House

would be a passive "trigger" to millions of sexually abused women, both in the United States and elsewhere . . . seeing another sociopathic privileged white boy with a similar "vibe" one step from the US Supreme Court

where he will weigh in on major legal questions impacting women's health and potential remedies in cases of sexual assault, potentially for decades . . . is ANOTHER "trigger"

All of the men (and women) trying to sweep all this under the rug and denigrating women pushing back on Kavanaugh's nomination are missing the point

these are women dealing with traumas that are bubbling up to the surface and, as such, these "bubbles" have lots of power behind them

ultimately, women will rebel

a good thing for America and a very bad thing for serial abusers such as those listed above
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#overIT

A Young Republican on the way home from a Prayer Meeting meets a man and they "bond" and while the "new friend"
is helping the young aspiring Congressman-to-be deal with his tension through a little oral stimulation -- and no, they aren't debating the Constitution

the new friend pushes him down in the bathroom stall, anally rapes him, steals his wallet, and bloodies his nose . . . does he "report this"?

another young man sneaks out of his house, goes to a party, gets drunk and is robbed

does he report being robbed, knowing he is outing himself for sneaking out of the house?

in both cases, it is easy to #understand why someone might be reluctant to report that crime

now magnify that by a factor of about a million and imagine these were women in similar situations

but in each case, on top of what's happening, she is victimized by someone physically stronger than her and forced to do something against her will

yet the complications arising from questioning WHY she was there in the first place or what she did to "cause it"
may seem overwhelming

I believe Dr. Ford and, truth is, so do all the Republican men trying to shut her up
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#overIT

Dr. Ford, recalling a time in which she was sexually assaulted, speaking on national TV (for the first time, ever) while basically being grilled by a prosecutor . . . cool as a cucumber

Judge Kavanaugh -- "supposedly" someone in control of his emotions . . . has a melt down and is total evasive dick . . . for which he "gets a pass"
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yet, had Dr. Ford done something just like this, all we would be hearing now is how she is a "hysterical woman" . . . once again, #overIT

there are multiple levels of trauma and multiple agents "triggering" many of us on "the Day After"

to quote my boy O. Wilde "everything is about sex but sex. Sex is about power"

and what is triggering many of us is the blatant disregard of boundaries by self-entitled blow hard know-it-all conservatives who think it is ok to laugh at you, call you names, and invade your space . . . all of Trump's bombastic bull shit is a slap in the face to millions of decent friendly compassionate people

I watched every second of both testimonies yesterday

and this morning I am WAY THE FUCK triggered by it all

and, like Dr. Ford, no doubt the thing that clangs loudest is "the laughing"

this is all about power and stacking the courts with people who don't see everyone "as equal"

this is a fucking war
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and that, sadly, is no laughing matter :(

Donald Trump was born during a Full Moon, with his Sun at 21 Gemini opposing his Moon at 22 Sagittarius

This is coupled with a conjunction of Sun / Moon with his North and South Moon Nodes at 20 degrees Gemini (North) and 20 Sagittarius (South)

Brett Kavanaugh's Moon Nodes: North Node 21 Gemini, South Node 21 Sagittarius . . . translation: karmic twins

There are also VERY VERY tight Astrological intra-aspects between (1) Trump, (2) Kavanaugh, (3) Jeff Flake, (4) Cory Booker and (5) Kamala Harris . . . translation: soul #contracts

#popcorn pops 

Places, like people, have #auras

and they also have energetic signatures that "light up" just like the energy of an individual; this #signature can be "read"

I have said all year that the places that "lit up" were Hawaii and the Carolinas . . . translated: they are the areas in which the most intense activity FROM WITHIN is going to take place . . which, translated even further, means they are the areas in which the outside and inside likely, in one way or another, will #collide . . . I have predicted major issues with storms and flooding in the Carolinas for the past year

that, sadly, will "hit" this week

How do I "see this" -- it is through energetic "clusters" and the clusters manifest as external actions that #arrive to help clarify an internal state of being

the Atlantic coast line is acting out an internal state of mind, nutty as that may sound, it is true

the Earth is a conscious interconnected energy

people speak of #intention, but intention is often only loosely connected, if at all, to the core energy of a person or place

the place has a collective "vibe", just like countries, corporations, sports teams, etc
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to see the "core state" is to have a glimpse into the future

and so Hawaii and the Carolinas are working out their internal issues

and storms, volcanoes, etc
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are part of their collective "process"