The Tarot is typically seen as a tool for Divination, but (to me) it is primarily a tool for Initiation

the symbols get "absorbed" and do their roto-root tootin' thang within you

the cards are transformers more than signifiers, way makers more than way "showers"

to see them as only an "oracle" is, to me, not giving them their due

their power is subtle -- but strong nonetheless

If you think of Astrology charts or Tarot spreads as if they are plays

. . . each planet or card a character with certain lines interacting with the other characters on stage

it may open up a whole new way to "see them"

this is how I see them -- as characters in a "cosmic drama"

a poor player that struts and frets its hour upon the stage . . . remember, when you wear a mask, you are often more inclined to tell the truth

to "change your future" you have to UNDERSTAND why your "current future" is more or less inevitable

free will is always there -- provided there is consciousness and awareness behind it

blindly moving forward, unaware of what (or who) is really driving your train

is not the same thing as the "exercise" of free will -- it is simply movement

and unconscious movement is fairly easy to chart and predict

. . . to change course, one must first see the road

you can drive a car and not know where you're going, yet be conscious you are moving forward and CHOOSE to move forward

rather than stop and ask for direction or turn around

. . . to change the future one must look within

the person who truly does this is a rare bird indeed . . . study this bird and your future is within your control

if not, if you go forward "unaware of why" you make the choices you do . . . then your future is much more "fixed" than you may care to admit

It has been 17 and 1/2 years since Jeff Buckley, arguably the most talented singer in the world at the time of his death at age 30,

drowned in the Wolf River in Memphis, Tennessee

Jeff's father, folk singer Tim Buckley, died of a drug overdose at the age of 28, when Jeff was only 8 years old

. . . why do I bring this up ??

because this is a "transcendent talent" -- one blessed with karmic gifts galore

he will show up AGAIN on the music scene in the next 3 to 4 years . . . this is my "prediction"

Jeff Buckley (literally) reborn, making music again -- before the decade ends

People ask me, quite often, what they can to to "create prosperity" in their lives?

is there a special potion, a karmic talent hidden away, some special date with destiny just waiting for them, like a golden goose with their own personalized golden egg ????

what IS IT -- and how, best, to hurry up and FIND IT !!!!!!!!!!!

but the truth is -- prosperity comes when you "provide value"

it doesn't matter what you DO; what matters is the VALUE YOU CREATE

an example -- during my brief time in the executive world of Corporate America, I provided a LOT of value to my employers and was paid quite handsomely

at Kaiser Permanente, I was billed out at $175 an hour (of which I got $140)

. . . $7,000 a week, $364,000 annualized out for the year

but that $364,000 investment by Kaiser paid off in spades because I was able to help develop processes (or isolate problem areas and help "resolve them more quickly" -- thus eliminating the lost revenue AND increased labor costs that would have accrued if the problem dragged on any longer) in a software project with an 8 BILLION DOLLAR PRICE TAG

so the $364,000 they paid for a year of my services likely saved them at least 5 Million Dollars, probably much more than that

as a psychic, however, if I am "entertaining someone" then perhaps I provide a return on investment comparable to a movie and far less than a massage or a concert . . . so the $85 investment may not be "worth it"

if, on the other hand, my advice "helps the client" make choices in their lives or find a job or eliminate 5 years of therapy, then the $85 is likely money well spent

. . . ultimately, to increase your prosperity, you have to increase the amount of value you provide to others

and the best way to do that ??

increase the value of your primary product -- YOURSELF

always think in terms of what you can do to help others (and how you can be a BETTER YOU) . . .and the golden egg will, eventually, end up parked in your basket

60 to 60 (60  DAYS . . . until I move into a land I thought I would never see: 60 Years OLD)

On February 6th, I will hit the BIG 60 !!

and I am in a contemplative reflective mood and this morning feel like taking a bit of inventory of some of the things I may have "learned" over these past 59 5/6 years

things are different at 59 -- there's no other way to put it

when I was younger I was, perhaps, (at times) sort of a "handful"

a rebellious (although I didn't see myself that way at the time but holy fuck there's no doubt, looking back, that I spit at every restriction pointed my way) lad I was

and for those rebels in the family, you all know there is a price and a blessing that comes with this attitude

an artist, an athlete, a scholar, a magician

somebody who, due to his own internal wiring, self-destructed 
every time the Golden Goose came his way, who ruined relationships

because unconsciously he was fighting with his mother

not the optimal way to approach things

. . . a fat clumsy child who through an unbelievable 
drive to be anything OTHER than a fat adult

drove himself relentlessly until he became a highly competitive 
almost professional level athlete, always wondering 
what might have been had he started earlier

check that -- been ALLOWED to have started earlier

soooooo what are some of the lessons ??

first off: unconsciously fighting with your mother for years and years is never a good "plan"

yet had I been conscious of it, surely I would have seen the folly of my ways and changed it

only, of course, I had no idea

so cluster . . . continually sought out fuck

and found it

there are so many times in my past in which I am sure others saw me as insane -- and maybe I was

because I was driven by the voices and visions in my head . . . and the little devils could never just come right out and say what they wanted

they had to speak in code and leave little clues hidden all over and so my 20’s turned into a scavenger hunt for Jesus

when it should have kept right on rolling the way it started -- pretty boy sleeping through class and staying out all night picking up girls

I liked that “era”

I am going to fast-forward a bit from 24 to 59 and instead of plotting out the million twists turns and train wrecks of that time, try to pick out a few highlights of things I may have learned that, looking back, have actually helped a bit

first off -- if your family is supportive and polite, great

love them and be thankful; if they want to control you though shaming you or calling you names

if they want to look down on you (because perhaps unconsciously they are jealous of what they see coming your way) or try to make you feel bad

 . . . in the “hope” this will “teach you a lesson”

FUCK ‘EM

don’t waste years trying to understand what their trip is; it is a waste of time

be nice, forgive but after 58 more incidents, all the same

there comes a time to turn the blinking lights off . . . and shut them out

until you do this, your life will be misery

as you will be driven to parade various story lines across the family stage in hopes of “acceptance”

this attitude is bad for you (although good for my own personal “job security” as “The Rock n Roll Psychic”)

many of us stay because we think we don’t deserve any better . . . as to “why”, please scroll back to my earlier speech about “THE FAMILY”

and your “family” may not just be your parents and immediate “kin” but peer groups, co-workers, neighbors . . . anyone to whom you willingly give the keys to your self-worth

however back to the Three Little Pigs Give Dating Advice

if you need a relationship to “complete you”, it is pretty easy to predict your outcome: “you’re fucked”

because if you need this to make you whole there is a much better chance of being “less together” later on than there is of finding “wholeness”

. . . it is a rare bird who sticks around to fix things with you; if you find this angel, consider yourself blessed with the greatest of all gifts

because there is no greater

but the laws of probability are not on our side; fix yourself first

not so much because you’re way out of whack but, more likely, because you won’t value yourself enough to get out before things start breaking

this is also easier said than done and circles back once more to my earlier speech about “job security” as a psychic

and that, boys and girls, is the distilled wisdom of 59 years

. . . rather than examining the “root cause” and trying to move on, wiser but not bruised and battered

we all fuck up -- somewhere

find your silver lining and if there are a team of “experts” on your payroll whose only job is to catalogue black clouds

they need to be “replaced”

this is why I am different at 59 than 29, 39, or 49