your soul is worth more than your career

in the years in which I was a corporate executive, I had to constantly "hide" my politics

and hide, really, my true self . . . I was good at this game, although I was confused as fuck at first but once I got the gig down, and was promoted high enough up the food chain that others would give me "feedback" that I was part of "the club"

I was able to go on auto pilot -- after Lehna died, I lost my ability to play this game

my intellectual abilities were still there, but my "body language" was off

I was just looking at the Facebook of a dude who is a big promoter of trump shit and all the good ole Southern white boy stuff that eats it all up

he has that corporate thang

and I remembered why, once more, it took me until I was almost 45 years old, super late to start, to jump on this train
and why when I got off, I could never get back

they "teach you" (and it is subtle, but -- if you want to get "anywhere" also #understood)

that empathy is a loser's game

this attitude is why we're a fuckn hott mess now

and boys like this boy serve as graphic reminders to me now why this world could never ever ever be "my world"

even though I play acted at it for awhile and got all the toys and plane rides and fancy dinners that came along with it

your soul is worth more than your career

you #grow through empathy and when you shut empathy "off"

ultimately, your soul atrophies

and begins to #die

soul survival -- that is where we are #now

everybody wants to be a "winner", have the perks that winners get

but at what cost?

what does it cost?

choices, ultimately, matter
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in ways that might not, on the surface, seem so #obvious