I have spent nearly 40 years now searching in a constant needle in a haystack universe of possibility
trying to (a) discover my "past lives" and (b) understand how it all "works"
seeing past lives for me, now anyway, is pretty easy . . . but the nuances (especially if themes repeat) often "overlap" making specific details sometimes more #complicated !!
the names/faces I "discover" (or which discover me) are the result of a long tedious process; the closest analogy I can think of would be someone looking through books of photos
at the police, trying to ID the man who stole your purse; you know basic details but the process of individually scrolling through thousands or tens of thousands of matches
can be frustrating and VERY time consuming; sometimes, you think you find a match, only later to realize the pieces (though sooooo close) are not close enough
and your hard-earned "victory" tossed back into a stormy sea of "maybe"
this is how it works (for me); sometimes they are just handed to me
but usually, they are the result of a serious almost obsessive "quest" to find some piece of "truth"
would my life have been more productive, glamorous, financially secure had I skipped all this?
without a doubt !!!
but I said to myself when I was 23 years old "I will give up everything to find this answer"
not knowing that was exactly what I was going to be forced to give up: everything (else)
however, I get closer and closer and closer every passing year to finding "me" and finding "why"
and that, for me, makes up for everything else
I had to give up in order to have the time and freedom to keep looking
trying to (a) discover my "past lives" and (b) understand how it all "works"
seeing past lives for me, now anyway, is pretty easy . . . but the nuances (especially if themes repeat) often "overlap" making specific details sometimes more #complicated !!
the names/faces I "discover" (or which discover me) are the result of a long tedious process; the closest analogy I can think of would be someone looking through books of photos
at the police, trying to ID the man who stole your purse; you know basic details but the process of individually scrolling through thousands or tens of thousands of matches
can be frustrating and VERY time consuming; sometimes, you think you find a match, only later to realize the pieces (though sooooo close) are not close enough
and your hard-earned "victory" tossed back into a stormy sea of "maybe"
this is how it works (for me); sometimes they are just handed to me
but usually, they are the result of a serious almost obsessive "quest" to find some piece of "truth"
would my life have been more productive, glamorous, financially secure had I skipped all this?
without a doubt !!!
but I said to myself when I was 23 years old "I will give up everything to find this answer"
not knowing that was exactly what I was going to be forced to give up: everything (else)
however, I get closer and closer and closer every passing year to finding "me" and finding "why"
and that, for me, makes up for everything else
I had to give up in order to have the time and freedom to keep looking
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