mapmaker

I always thought it would be super cool fantabulous totally bitchin' peachy keen if I could find ALL my past lives say back to 1800 and make a big giant score sheet and show how they all looked alike and do all the Astrology and just lay it out . . . piece by piece

this is is how it rolls -- these are my peeps, here are the (likely) rules . . . a pattern, like a giant tapestry

and, with this giant tapestry, a #template

to discover past lives for others . . . and to "prove" on some level that reincarnation was legit

in large part -- and yes, this, I believe is (irony or no) "karmic" and likely a "job theme" of days past

to follow up on my rebel heretic past

as someone disgusted with the fuckery of Christianity

who comes to say . . . y'all are missing "the point"

so (again), "in large part", this tapestry road map score card

is/was an attempt to "take on" Christianity and Buddhism and anyone else

who may spit out nonsense designed to control people

not that the original ideas of the "originators" weren't dead on

but the #followers distort it, twist it, and use it as a club to beat down the masses

and that goes against my original impetus "for coming" which was to help people lead better lives

. . . there are always going to be bullies and tyrants who can't let people live in peace and well . . . on and on the fuckery rolls

it makes sense that in the 20th Century a religious heretic -- (because this, for sure, is my karmic template
and, for sure, 100 % guarantee

I have been one to stir some shit and often ended up with a flame beneath my feet or a tight little necktie attached to a tree)

might choose to #incarnate as an actor, because this ability to talk and persuade would be a developed skill

. . . straight from the opening bell, I have been #blessed with a #noticeable power to "talk", smooth eloquent a charmer, always always always, from toddler right on through

a carry-over, most likely, of my pervasive job "theme" of one who "tells a story" and tries to convince people to not let bullies continue to beat them down

and, also without doubt, there are past lives as people with "the means" to indulge who were "good looking" and charming and charismatic and likely indulged a little "too much" in the sensory/sensual side of life -- a balance to lives in which I may have been a monk who didn't talk for years upon years upon years

my life always repeats these two themes: a monk who isolates himself for large blocks of time and a wild child who lives life flat the fuck out . . . from one extreme to the other

a balancing act that can only be seen as in balance from seeing it "from above"

I probably don't have a lot of past lives as psychics, per se, but I do believe my primary past life job theme is #religious, without a doubt

a heretic, a trouble maker, someone who comes to say "this is wrong, here is how the universe and God really works"
most of my "actual" past lives are probably then trouble makers and people who stirred some shit and caused people "in power", like the Catholic Church, perhaps, as an example

some problems

long story only sort of long . . . it is unlikely I will ever have my complete "karmic score card"

but even without it (and who would believe it, anyway, really ??)

I am coming to some level of awareness, and peace

with my natural inclinations

and my life makes lots more sense when understood in the context of one who makes God his "job"

and refuses to accept "doctrine" if it doesn't vibe with what's in my heart

Religion is a weapon to beat you down

and all I am saying is that it is wise to look at things with clear eyes and think for yourself

reincarnation is the truth but I can't prove it, but in trying to prove it, I have learned something else, perhaps even more valuable
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end of (this) rant