and, as a result, has typically forgotten exactly how to turn it back "up"
of course, this is by design and usually it is somewhere within the family tree that we find the original designers
this ultimately is -- in the most simplistic way to say it . . . both a "worthiness" issue and (as a result) a boundary issue
until we see ourselves as "worthy", nothing will go as planned
because the seeds of "undoing" are. more than likely, already planted #deep within the subconscious
how can we change this?
I always believe it comes down to "root cause" and my "methods" for finding that root cause include looking at "who" planted the seed(s) in the first place
and examining, literally, if what they said "was the truth"
if not -- then why did they say it?
through this process, we can begin connecting the dots and if your self-esteem is grounded in an attitude "given to you" that truly has nothing to do with YOU
and everything to do with THE GIVER
then it is possible to make a conscious evaluation of the messenger and the message and say "maybe this way of seeing myself isn't TRUE"
and, if not, then, perhaps, I am, literally, beating myself up for nothing
because it, once upon a time, #served someone else's #agenda to make me feel #small
to quote my little cousin from years ago "fuck that noise"