haystack

a constant battle -- to publish work on reincarnation that I think might make SOME sense

or publish (instead) what I think is actually closer to what I see . . . this "tell some now" or keep on digging fork in the road is a real issue for me

because as I continue to dig deeper and find more "stuff"

I am in a consistent state of flux trying to incorporate what I "find" into a semi-comprehensive theory

the desire is STRONG to just slice off a piece or two and say "here, this is what I found" because it makes a good story

and stop

but, instead, I just keep going, knowing the more I find, the whackier it all sounds and the more "out there" I must sound, as well

uh yeah