or publish (instead) what I think is actually closer to what I see . . . this "tell some now" or keep on digging fork in the road is a real issue for me
because as I continue to dig deeper and find more "stuff"
I am in a consistent state of flux trying to incorporate what I "find" into a semi-comprehensive theory
the desire is STRONG to just slice off a piece or two and say "here, this is what I found" because it makes a good story
but, instead, I just keep going, knowing the more I find, the whackier it all sounds and the more "out there" I must sound, as well