and the other camp those wondering about the pain bubbling within the individual and trying to feel empathy for whatever they must have been feeling and going through; I fall into this second camp
as someone who has more than once actively and legitimately stared at the strong thought I might/should/would do this, I can say that no matter what the external situation may appear to others
the inner world is complicated and the emotional roller coaster on which many of us ride
is not a straight line
external factors -- money fame "talent" (and talent is often a burden to those who want to go down a different path since others may "need" them to use that talent for THEIR benefit)
don't matter much if you feel trapped or sad
and much as we may look to others and say "wow, I would NEVER do this" or "if I had what THEY had" etc etc etc
we can never know what's inside them if all we see is what is OUTSIDE on the surface
results we see, the cost to obtain the results, we do NOT
everyone wants "success"; few are willing to pay the price to achieve it
so as we sit here wondering about those who have left us, please try to empathize with the pain of those still around
many more are on the fence with suicide
and most are unwilling to look for help because as soon as they look for it, their worlds are turned upside down by people "watching them" from then on
in this culture, we condemn the mentally ill
and when their illness manifests at a more advanced stage, we see something wrong with "them"
it is complicated for high achievers who feel sad
they can't (typically) admit to weakness nor seek help
and this applies to many many people walking around us today
compassion please
#LOVE