HOWEVER, I never really rooted out the self-destruct button access code creating this magic was sure to trip
now, I am slower, more step by step in how I build my "relationship" with opportunities
and have spent way more energy in creating conditions in alignment with where I would like to be (so as to add to the possibility of maintaining it should it happen)
as opposed to hurrying up to get there, without understanding the costs to "stay there"
create conditions within yourself that are in alignment with your goals before running off to do something, deep down, you don't feel "worthy of"
because the deep down can, quite quickly
rise to the surface
and the gains you created, go poof, adios
#truth; sad truth but truth nonetheless