Later that day, when I tried to go into my bedroom to use my laptop I found the door frozen shut -- there wasn't a lock, it was just "stuck" . . . so with nothing much to do, I continued to read Tammy's bio. (I didn't get in to my room until the following day when it just, somehow, "un-stuck").
After awhile, I started "feeling" a presence around me. There is a distinct "energy" when someone is trying to "talk" to you . . . I make/made sort of a big deal about not being a "medium" but, truth be told, I could always see Grandma Jones, I just didn't feel like talking about it.
Over the next few days, this "Spirit" continued to communicate with me. I wrote about it, (re-posted below), and went on about my life, as a new girl had just shown up in my world -- Alicia Kent -- and within a couple of weeks my world was about to change dramatically because of her.
I was also at the time a radio host for "Twisted South Magazine" and that relationship was about to end . . . so the combo of Alicia's presence and Twisted South's absence helped push Tammy to the back of my mind . . . but only to the back; she was never really gone.
Tammy was only 55 when she died -- interestingly, I was also 55 when she first "came to me". Remember, I had been reading her bio right before all this started happening so, of course, this was the catalyst to her "popping up" and it is not really "fair and balanced" not to point this out. But, even with that, I still feel, as there is a disinct energy to how a "spiritual presence" just "shows up", that this "was" an actual spiritual connection to/with Tammy.
I don't think it was just a runaway imagination . . . I believe it really was a "visitation".
What I am about to say, though, is highly speculative and of course is not something I can "know" one way or another. I have never talked about it in public, but I am going to talk about it now.
A little less than a month before Tammy's first visit, her husband, George Ritchie, passed away. He was 74 years old . . . I knew nothing and I do mean nothing of George Ritchie but I felt, very strongly from my impressions of Tammy, that he was more connected to her death than people realized. Now, I had been reading Tammy's bio, so it is not as if these ideas popped up out of thin air, and it is important, I think, to acknowledge that fact.
But -- I believe, strongly believe, that Tammy Wynette's husband had a darker motive towards the care of his beautiful and uber-famous wife and that he had a hand in laying the foundation for her death. I don't think it is a coincidence that she started showing up to me 4 weeks after George Ritchie's death.
I realize this is a bold thing to just come right out and say . . . but based on my "impressions", this thought continues to be how I see her death.
Anyway . . . . Also: Here are my two earlier "Notes" about Tammy.
"My Country Music Angel" (Originally Posted September 4, 2010)
Over the course of my career, I have tried to maintain a "rational" approach to my work -- cutting out a LOT of what I see and trying to express my thoughts in a manner suitable to the middle path, not too out there either direction. I see the economy do this, you're going to get a job in a building next to a pond about 6 weeks from now, your best path is X etc etc etc. I talk about past lives but try to ground them in a fairly rational psychological analysis.
I have also refused and stated, very adamantly, that I am NOT going to be a medium -- even though I can see your grandmother when you ask, I still won't go there. I have my reasons and they make sense, at least to me.
Every once in a while, though, I say things that cross that middle ground and those times are probably my most truthful. I have had very intense spiritual experiences, what we might call "angelic visitations", over the past 30 plus years and I go out-of-body on the astral plane so often that I don't even think it warrants talking about. What probably seems strange and amazing to many is actually kind of old hat, second nature to me.
But -- every once in a while -- stuff happens that surprises even me.
And now (and I don't know why), I am seeing and hearing the spirit of Tammy Wynette.
Yes, The First Lady of Country Music, for some reason, is visiting me. The closest analogy I can think of (and actually, to me anyway, this comparison sort of makes sense) is seeing a vision of the Virgin Mary. Tammy comes to me as an angel and even though I was never really a fan and knew NOTHING of her life -- and death -- now I feel as if (in less than a week) I have known her forever.
Yes, it's strange.
And normally, I would be a little reluctant to just put it out there, just like this. BUT -- I feel as if she has a message for me and even though I don't know exactly what that message IS, still I am shifting my vibration more towards the energy I feel emanating out of her. I think she was -- and is -- a beautiful soul.
Over the years I have become close friends with many musicians, especially musicians in Nashville. They are my tribe and I love them. I feel this kinship with music and musicians that is so strong!
I feel her presence all around me and I also feel as if more spirits will begin "showing up" soon to those of us who are "tuned in" to their "station". Open yourself to love -- as she tried soooooo hard to do -- and you will be love and the world, soon, will be a better place. I can safely say that I am now a BIG Tammy Wynette fan. I love her.
After all, She is an angel :)
"Channeling Tammy Wynette" (Orinally Posted July 6, 2011)
Back in the 80's, I was commissioned by a big church in downtown Columbus, Ohio, to find their "ghost" . . I wandered through the church and at various points, I would say "I don't feel as if I can go any further" and, every time, I was told "oh we added on here".
Eventually, to make a long, actually pretty interesting, story short, I came up with the idea that it was the organist, who was in love with the pastor. Later we learned that She really did exist, and died in (I believe) 1926 -- before all the renovations and additions were added. I also saw, in my mind, in addition to the story line between her and her unrequited love, a song -- and as I looked at the song in my head, I saw that it ended with a "dotted whole note".
I asked if there were file cabinets upstairs and, after being told there were, I walked upstairs, went straight to a file cabinet and, first thing, pulled out a song. It ended with a dotted whole note and the final lyrics were "and I will live in thine house forever". Chills.
Fast forward 23 years. Tonight I wanted a "message" from Tammy Wynette -- who, for whatever reason, "comes to me". Who knows why? Although I guess someone with the moniker "rock n roll psychic" -- a name I got because I spent a lot of time talking with blonde singers in Nashville, that perhaps it is not SO weird.
Anyway, in "answer" to my "query", I heard, in my head, "look for a song I did with George; it will tell you how I feel" and after looking up George Jones - Tammy Wynette duets on youtube, this particular song instantly "lit up" to me. I felt strongly this was "the song". Then I listened to it.
Read the lyrics -- listen to the song and think of it as a possible "message from beyond". It, too, may give you chills.
Here is the song: "Take Me"
Take me, take me to your darkest room
Close every window and bolt every door
The very first moment I heard your voice
I'd be in darkness no more
Take me to your most barren desert
A thousand miles from the nearest sea
The very moment I saw your smile
It would be like heaven to me
There's not any mountain too rugged to climb
No desert too barren to cross
Darlin', if you would just show a sign
Of love, I could bear with all loss
Take me to Siberia
And the coldest weather of the winter time
And it would be just like spring in California
As long as I knew you were mine
Yes, it would be just like spring in California
As long as I knew you were mine
Take me, take me
Here is a link to the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PHgY_Ge7toI