Blog Archives - Andrew Brewer

PTSD

5/31/2019

I have been continually PTSD since my daughter's stillbirth back in 2006; continually . . . there has not been one single day, not one

that I have not been forced in one form or another to try and navigate the landmines in my fractured psyche . . . everything I have #achieved as a psychic, radio "personality", film actor . . . everything . . . I did coming from a place of trauma . . . my heart roped off, buried like the gold in Ft. Knox

I really am smart as fuck (and modest, too !!) . . . and my intellectual advantages bought me time and space as I tried to limp along these past 13 years . . . not everyone you meet feels whole, not everyone (not matter how much they may seem to achieve) is always together, feels emotionally stable . . . I am a talented guy but the past 13 years have been a struggle

if you, too, have managed to keep things together when, deep down inside, you are trying just to get through the day, trying to #remember what you were like before the trauma you've #experienced

blew up your world and #broke_your_brain, please give yourself credit

for all you've done

it is not easy; I know

too well

all respect <3

Black Sheeped

5/31/2019

Many of us have been black sheeped straight from the womb, because our mothers or fathers needed to #discredit us . . . in order to make sure we could never be #credible witnesses to their dysfunction

translated: the narrative spun around us was distorted so that others would never believe our versions of familial reality -- we were gaslighted on one hand and talked about behind our backs on the other

this was by design to (a) ensure we would always have a competing louder version of #truth with the added benefit that (b) having others see us through a distorted lens would, ultimately, distort our own sense of self

the witness is always the one who's attacked . . . made out to be "fake news"

why, perhaps, trump is triggering so many of us who wear our indigo wool . . . our parents needed to #hide their shit

and so, they shit on us

to cover it (and us) UP

puppet mastery

5/27/2019

Trump is a master gaslighter who can only be effective

by appealing to the rampant paranoia of people who want to be #winners

but whose self-esteem is so damaged they can't have faith in themselves . . . these are people so damaged that they are willing to be abused just so they can find, somewhere, a group to whom they can feel superior . . . translated: they're so fucked up they can only be happy if they can see evidence someone, somewhere, is even more miserable than they are . . . #puppets

dog eat dog eat dog

5/27/2019

Most people at the bottom of the economic food chain are getting lopped off . . . fixed income folks are seeing basic needs get more expensive (food, utilities, gas) as their incomes stay the same

certain groups -- independent of the corporate landlock (farmers being the #1 group right now) are also at great risk as they are parked on valuable real estate but their fixed costs for harvest/production and maintenance of their crops (or small businesses) are now at risk of being greater than their yield . . . this puts them at very great risk of

losing their farms or places of business

those at the high end will be fine . . . the bottom 1/3 will be at risk

those who are in the top 2/3'rds may think this a fine and equitable system and works and think "well, fuck the losers on the bottom"

but in a system in which your connection to the top group is tenuous, at best

and the forces pushing you one way or another are largely out of your control and can happen at lightning speed

the very real possibility is that those who are "safe" today will be at very great risk later . . . sometimes not all that much later

and all they've worked for basically stolen from them by a ravenous top heavy system

that only rewards those at the top, while progressively eating those at the bottom

the year I turned 50, I was making $292,000 . . . my Platinum American Express card expenditure (just one card alone; one I paid in full every month) that year was $57,000 -- about $4750 a month, not to mention multiple house payments, multiple car payments, etc

these bills were EASY for me to meet

and then came the bank bailout and the economic downturn and when the cycle turned back up again, I (and millions of others) went from very high -- in 2005, I was in the famous Top 1% in terms of income earned

to zero . . . and when you go from mid 6 figures to $0 it takes a while to lose everything and my cushion was greater than most (then) but the long-term math here is not so good

I am 64 years old now, not the optimal age for former executives to go "job shopping" and my annual income is barely $10,000 -- from $5600 a week to about $185

I hang on by the slimmest of margins . . . others are likely even more at risk than me (as I still have physical assets from before)

and when they lose -- or you lose

this system will do nothing much to save you

I talked about all this coming our way in a book I wrote book in 2007 (back when I had faith that writing books would "do something for me") called "Cognitive Dissonance and the Blowback Economy"

I said these things would happen and that the ultimate end game was to drive down labor costs

and that has happened . . . a secondary "bonus" of this is that when people can't pay their mortgage or utility bills or -- the biggie for most people -- hospital bills

then predators can scoop up your homes and belongings for pennies on the dollar and resell it later

this is going to happen to farmers

and millions of other "average Americans"

it is #inevitable

and yes, it's fun when the money rolls

but a system so cut throat and so devoid of any safety nets almost ensures, by design, that lots of people, no matter how hard they worked, no matter how well they "played the game"

will lose

this is the world people seem to want

don't be surprised then if what I outlined above turns out to be the end result

call me a pessimist, a doom and gloomer, a bitter old man who lost, call me whatever you like to make the fear that what I am saying is true not be so scary

this is the world people wanted

and so, this is the world now they're going to get

how DARK can it go?

5/27/2019

I have been a man who has, in the past, had some eerily accurate "visions" of the future, often years in advance of what ultimately came to pass . . . I predicted, for example, the housing crash and banking crisis way before they happened as well as the rise of white nationalism in both the EU and United States; I described flat screen TV's, digital photography and photoshop, the extensive use of wireless technology when these were seen as science fiction, something #impossible . . . things I talked about, I would later see described as something "no one could have predicted"

but, that's not true because truth is, I PREDICTED them anywhere from 2-10 years before they happened

and so, another #vision of how if may be

. . . how DARK can it go ?? . . . let's say that administrative costs for hospitals become such that small, rural communities will no longer be seen as cost-effective and existing health care services simply shut down

as the tariffs continue, likely for quite a while, what happens to farmers and rural suppliers when the subsidies dry up or run out . . . farmers working at a loss will simply fold, their farms repossessed and the surrounding communities no longer able to sustain basic services or mom + pop businesses -- family restaurants, insurance agents, dry cleaners, etc etc

another likely issue arising from an ongoing trade war with China is what happens if cell providers using equipment from Huawei, for example, have to replace existing towers and cable? No one is going to jump in to do this as the upfront costs are greater than the immediate returns . . . translated: some rural customers may no longer have workable cell phones

as these areas became less self-sustaining and current tax revenues shrink, where does the money come from to maintain county roads . . . who pays the light bill for the post office or salaries for teachers

in a truly worst case scenario -- but (to me) not so far fetched, either

large areas of the country are simply roped off, ghost towns, no man's lands

with super highways and services running down the middle and the surrounding countryside abandoned . . . until "absorbed" by factory farming corporations who work the land and provide on site housing for migrant labor

we're making it a dog eat dog survival of the fittest world . . . and a lot of little dogs barking about #socialism (really a mild form of Keynesian economics that served us well in the past)

will soon be eaten alive by REAL capitalists

Dark ?? yeah, it can literally and metaphorically get very dark, for millions of people in the not all that distant future

#choices

when people die because they have farming accidents or their children die because of inadequate care

how much #winnng will offset that

these hospitals are going to shut down

as roads get harder to traverse and hospitals further away, more people will die

to me, this is 5-10 years away, max

And I didn't talk one of the BIGGEST ISSUES -- floods

who pays to rebuild?

answer: No one :(

lighthouse

5/21/2019

I make LOTS of mistakes (as a psychic) but I also do quite a few pretty amazing things, as well

if I let the fear of criticism for my mistakes freeze me up I couldn't do the good things I do

don't let others cock-block you from your own power, because they will given half a chance . . . there are no certainties in Psychic World but there is still lots of room for Magic . . . be magical . . . tune out those who wish to stop you

they only do so

because

THEY FEAR YOU

and the reason they fear you?

you shine a light, unintentionally, on their own doubts about themselves

and so they wish to share their misery with you

own your power or your lack will own you

For young psychics

5/21/2019

For young psychics:

you're going to post something someone doesn't like, you're going to post something that's not ever going to happen, you're going to be pushed back and stepped on and all the love and light passive-aggression of a thousand midnights will rain down on your little head

but don't back down, don't give up, don't let it turn your inner light off . . . own your #process -- you'll get there, sooner than you think

freeze frame

5/21/2019

Why doesn't the SDNY freeze the bank accounts of Jared Kushner and Donald Trump, Jr + Eric Trump

since they are under investigation for illegal financial activity

this has nothing to do with immunity from the DOJ for the President; they are private citizens, engaged in the real estate business, with financial transactions that have been flagged as #irregular . . . combined with other outstanding investigations into their suspect business practices, including likely tax fraud, there should be #cause for freezing their accounts and potentially #seizing their assets

how much longer

5/21/2019

the only way Trump can continue to get away with #obvious financial fraud -- crimes that would put most people in federal prison in minutes

is because

others in "high places" would also be implicated if the money trail led to its final resting place . . . this is a big time web of deceit that has been going on for at least 20 years . . . #when it crashes, it will be a gigantic kaboom . . . when it #crashes

I still persist in my belief that this will be uncovered and trump will #lose . . . when this happens, OTHER big names will go with him

burn those fuckn hats . . . we're not Hitler 2.0

we're just fuckn NOT

Abortion History

5/20/2019

Many women have had abortions -- I am pro-choice and feel the mother has the final say on #her_body because until the baby is born, the child is still INSIDE the mother

I am not a woman but I was the #father for three abortions, so I am part of this and have an abortion #history

each time this was the choice of the mother -- since she is the one who would have to carry the baby to term, to me, she has a deciding vote; I would have gone along with whatever the mother decided -- either way

I have been part of 5 pregnancies in my life -- each pregnancy happened when I was unmarried . . . I have one child; she is 27, and I married her mother before she was born

three children were aborted and one baby was stillborn; I was present with the mother for the first two abortions and only found out later about the third :(

once the baby is delivered, to me it is 50/50 and being the mother doesn't give someone a deciding vote in caring for the child or making decisions moving forward. . . however, until the child is delivered, the mother (to me) IS the deciding vote

this is as it should have been (then and how it should also be today); all terminations of pregnancy happened in the 1980's, two when I was in my 20's, one in my early 30's