I am continually struck by something, through a visual analysis (cursory though it must be) of my "suspected" past lives
and that is "this"
all of them are pedal to the metal kinds of peeps; no one jumps out as a sensitive introspective New Agey champion of the little people kind of guy
Achille Varzi (as an example) was famous for being kind of a dick -- a vain, ruthless, win at all costs steal your girlfriend and leave you in the dust kind of guy
the two women were (in their day) noted for breaking down sexual mores, pushing the sexual envelope HARD . . . femme fatale ice queen heart-breakers . . . 2 out of 2
and all the boys are testosterone-amped -- Army officer Army officer Army officer . . . Race Driver Race Driver
and it is likely even MORE Army officer Race Driver kinds of lives will continue to show up . . . I have basic blueprints as to to the who what and where of additional “life experiences” without a specific “yes, it’s YOU”
to connect the name and face with the time and “circumstances”
off the “suspected” 7 . . . 5 died violent deaths, two killed as a result of wounds in battle, two killed racing cars, one murdered by a jealous boyfriend
And let’s not forget little Kathy Tongay, one of the famous “Aquatots” of the 1950’s . . . if I was her (and upon seeing her photo, my mother thought I had an illegitimate child she’d never heard about) then add “beaten to death by my father at age 5” as another “hard stop”
Then it would be 8 lifetimes with 6 violent deaths: 75 % . . . seems like “a lot”, I think
I feel pretty confident another lifetime exists as well in this “particular mix”, another soldier (ANOTHER German) who likely died young, too . . .if that’s true, then 7 out of 9 and the percentages get worse and worse
I have had a couple of “candidates” for my “German” but am still on the fence a bit with exactly “who”
But, no doubt, he will turn out to have been: Amped-up high energy, ambitious ruthless vain FOCUSED . . . not one to be fucked with, cool, precise, deadly
someone who liked power, liked attention, liked to be “in charge” . . . charismatic, sexual, INTENSE
like all the others . . . and, like all the others
not long for this world . . . add to this, the probability of a couple more just like him, still waiting to be “found”
Average age at time of death for my Group of 7: 34 . . . so
in looking at these "lives" and understanding the parts that "pass on" it always strikes me as interesting that in studying the lives I've lived before
I am actually NOT being 100% true to the "essence" of what came before this "round"
and there are many times when the Achille Varzi parts come out . . . and I try to reel them in and put them back in a "safe place" :)
perhaps had I lived in alignment with the real "energy" of THESE particular life times, I might likely have died 28 years ago . . . too revved up to stop and "think" about what it all "means"
that is probably pretty close to the "truth"
never living long enough, before, to have time to “reflect”
. . . as a child there were only 3 things I ever thought of doing -- Army officer, race driver, actor
which "suggests" that I am somehow in some "life review" kind of life while ALIVE
I believe we are given opportunities to step back and see the forest and enjoy the trees one at a time, too
would I / could I have had a more "interesting" life?
but by "slowing down" (not my "style"), I have given myself an opportunity to connect with God and connect with myself
and that, perhaps more than medals or checkered flags
is a life "well lived", methinks