Sometimes you have "connections" -- they're fast, they're intense . . and they mean "something"
. . . profound
not all "soul mates" are romantic and some that are off the chain sparks flying wallpaper steaming hott
don't last . . . but true soul connections are "rare" and you sort of know right off
for the past days, I have literally been walking in the aisles of Valley Thrift and seen items right in front of me
JUMP off the shelves
and crash . . . not once, but 4 separate occasions, over two days . . . each time no around and the item was about 4-5 feet ahead of me, also always on my right side
a good friend from our radio talk show days is Peter Cheffie Anthony, the "Psychic Chef"
and he showed up last night and started describing the red-haired girl who looked like Rita Hayworth
who was breaking the stuff in Aisle 5
he also said she "knew me when I had hair" and she was connected to me when I did my TV show gig 25 years ago
my first thought was of Jenilee Harrison, Suzanne Somers' replacement in "Three's Company", who was a co-host of the show and with whom I had a rather interesting, brief but intense, "connection" while we were filming
but Jenilee is still alive and well and then -- poof, it hit me who it was
I am including the text of a blog I wrote about this "soul mate" of mine, someone who loved me a lot as I did her
but my life situation was "complicated" and so I chose not to run off with this beautiful young girl -- although God knows I thought about it a lot
we would occasionally cross paths over the years . . . and that chemistry spark love thing never once left . . . tragically, Calin hung herself when she was only 35 years old frown emoticon
. . . here is the text of a my blog a few years back "Suicide Girl"
plus a link to Calin's virtual memorial
. . . A name from the past, literally, sort of out of nowhere, just "popped" in my head a few minutes ago -- someone I hadn't thought of in years. It turns out this Friday is the fifth anniversary of her death. A beautiful, but tragic, girl, Calin hung herself October 28, 2006. She was only 35 years old. I tracked down Calin's "virtual memorial" and found something I'd written online just a few days after her death frown emoticon
. . . I saw Calin for the last time 3 years ago and she was still the ultimate ultimate beauty that I remembered.
I had been thinking about her a lot over the past few days before she died--which I normally didn't do. When my friend Vanessa called me I told her I had been thinking about Calin for the past three or four days and that I saw a picture of a girl who looked just like Calin. Vanessa said something to the effect of "well that is Calin's way of saying goodbye to you, to make you remember".
I met Calin when we both worked for a 900 psychic line in 1992. We quickly became friends and then just as quickly much more than friends.
Calin was a beautiful girl who, literally, stopped traffic--I saw it happen more than once--and who back then was often mistaken for the actress Tawny Kitaen.
I wrote some words about her right after I heard Calin was gone. It is like a mini-eulogy, I guess, and I want to share it with you. I think all of us who knew her and loved her will be happy that we did have her for whatever period we did as part of our lives.
Here is my brief little list of Calin's "good things":
Calin was a nice person She liked animals She was friendly to people She didn't look down on people in need She was very loving She was a good runner She was empathic She was beautiful She was good with horses She loved me I loved her.
Calin was a beautiful spiritual wild child who used her very obvious physical beauty and sweet spirit to win over the hearts and minds of those around her. Calin was funny--sometimes really funny--with a great laugh and that sultry Sally Kellerman voice and so as a boy trying to get her attention I did everything I knew to make her laugh and find me entertaining.
I think you would have liked her. She was a good person and was kind to strangers and animals and any "stray" that came along. She had a lot of sadness and "issues" with her childhood and I think that sadness colored everything she ever did.
I will miss her--even though I never ever see her anymore and would not really expect to. Still I miss the fact that somewhere such a beautiful soul, with such incredible sparkle and energy, is not lighting up some room and making some other boy catch his quickening breath somewhere else on our same earth. Life was better with Calin. Not everyone shared that opinion but incredible people tend to elicit incredible responses from others. I loved her and I know she loved me. I will truly truly miss her.